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I’ve started to notice that I subconsciously pick at people; why they act the way they do, what makes them tic. I think it’s out of fear of being socially rejected but knowing people is a way for me to avoid confrontation. Most of the pleasant moments shared with strangers seems like some sort of ruse that I get nothing out of except a fourth of self-conscious satisfaction. Some days I feel like I’m going to turn into a schizophrenic sociopath only self-aware.